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Arimidex...it's starting to kick my ass. And this is pissing me off. I was up and teaching Hi Impact and kickboxing in 5 weeks after the surgery (although I tried to get back after 3. Totally not allowed. Bummer!) And I taught 8-12 Kickboxing/Hi Impact/Spin Classes though all of my 35 rounds of Radiation.
Now..NOW...after over 2 years out ...my body doesn't work anymore?! My fingers move like Barbie Doll legs. They click but need help to extend. And my long, fit legs that kept me strong and focused, now sound like a timapani in concert as I move across a room. My knees rattle about like castanets. In my recovery I have morphed into litte more than a crude cacophany of everything that I was. I am truly beginning to believe that the sickness isn't always in the cancer but in the Cure. The Western Medical practice of Treatment is proving to be questionable at best. It saved my life, but, is degenerating it in its endeavors to extend it.
I hate the symphony of pain to which I am loathe to admit.
It's acute and I don't know how to mute this noise. Don't know if I can justify throwing back these little white pills that edge out any cancer and sully the rest of my life. All of those estrogen and progresterone pills that I was told to take over a decade ago after my oophorectomy that were said to restore my life ended up taking bits and pieces from it. Crappy fallout from Pharmeutical Madness and Greed. Science said it would help. It didn't.
I am one of the Walking Wounded Healed Breastless Wonders of the World and We are Legion.
Funny, when I was diagnosed with Cancer I could still run, jump, do push ups and teach Spin, HIIT Kickboxing and Dance Classes with no problem. 2 years in with Arimidex Treatment I have trouble standing up and my joints scream in frustration and I can't sleep due to that crazy shooting pain throughout my joints.
I tried to be cool about it. Until I couldn't anymore. Because even I couldn't pretend enough for me anymore. There was someting wrong woth the Treatment.
I knew I could beat cancer. Didn't know I had to fight the Remedy as well.
Perhaps the Cure is the New Cancer? I surely hope not. Between you me and, maybe everyone..somehing is beginnig to tell me that it is.